The Celebrity - Chapter 18
Chapter 18 – The taste of a big hero
Tian SiSi said, “You knew him?”
Qin Ge said, “Zhang ZiFang was Zhang Liang, one of the three outstanding heroes in the Han dynasty. In the history book, although his appearance was like a maiden, but his heart was like a soaring eagle. Relying on his single hammer in bo-lang-sha (abundant wave of sands), he had stamped his feet forever in famous biographies.”
Tian SiSi widened her eyes in shock as she blurted out, “You really know?”
Qin Ge said with a smile, “That’s right.”
Tian SiSi said, “Then why did you say those things last night?”
Qin Ge said, “I did that intentionally.”
Tian SiSi said, “Intentionally? Why did you intentionally play the fool?”
Qin Ge said, “Because I knew that everybody worshipped me, because I am the type of person who did not understand anything but was just supposed to fight all out, to gamble all out, and to drink all out.”
Tian SiSi said, “Why do others want to worship this kind of person?”
Qin Ge, “Because they themselves could not become like this person.”
He smiled, “Regardless of what we are doing, going all out in anything is not an easy matter.”
Tian SiSi sighed and said, “I understand now because I have seen your uncomfortable aftermath.”
Qin Ge said, “That is right, going all out requires also that you might have to endure hardship afterwards.”
Tian SiSi said, “But instead of going all out on many things why don’t you become an intelligent hero? Wouldn’t others admire such an appearance as well?”
Qin Ge said, “Others won’t admire such person.”
Tian SiSi said, “Why?”
Qin Ge said, “Because there are many people who are like that, not just myself.”
Tian SiSi said, “If you were also such a person, others would not think that is strange, right?”
Qin Ge said with a smile, “That is right, because they find me strange, only then can I be so famous today, only then can I become the idols in the minds of young fellows.”
He thought carefully and sighed, “If I turned into another person, others certainly will be disappointed in me.”
Tian SiSi said, “Therefore, after you were drunk you could acknowledge that being a hero did not taste all that good.”
Qin Ge said, “Right.”
Tian SiSi said, “But there are many different kinds of heroes, why did you choose this kind?”
Qin Ge said, “Because others already regarded me as this kind of hero, then it was no longer possible to change it.”
Tian SiSi said, “You do want to change now?”
Qin Ge said, “Not really.”
Tian SiSi said, “Why?”
Qin Ge said, “Because I have gradually become accustomed to it, sometimes even I felt that this type of hero was really me.”
Tian SiSi said, “Really?”
Qin Ge sighed, “Whether it is the truth or not, no one could distinguish it clearly, not even myself.”
Tian SiSi was silent for a very long time, she suddenly gave a long sigh, “I do not understand.”
Qin Ge said, “You do not need to understand, because this is life.”
Tian SiSi pondered this matter for a very long time before she slowly nodded and sighed, “If I had not met you, I would never have thought that you could be such a person.”
Qin Ge said, “What did you think I was?”
Tian SiSi rotated her eyes and said, “What do you think?”
Qin Ge said with a smile, “I think you considered me a great idol, therefore I would ask you to drink with me.”
Perhaps Qin Ge was not a genuinely great person, nor was he a god, but in the minds of people in jiang-hu, he was indeed a hero who received open-armed welcome everywhere.
So then Tian SiSi also drank.
Now they were walking on a very lonesome and quiet alley, both sides of the walls were very high, the branches of the trees extended from beyond the wall and blocked the extremely scorching heat of the high noon sun.
Tian SiSi suddenly said with a smile, “I did not expect that there were really so many people who offered you to drink with them.”
Qin Ge’s eyed had become very bright, because he was half tipsy although he was not fully drunk. He looked at the branches above the wall and said slowly, “Do you know why they welcomed me like that?”
Tian SiSi said, “Because you were a hero?”
Qin Ge smiled and said, “That was certainly one of the reasons, but not the most important one.”
Tian SiSi said, “What was the most important then?”
Qin Ge said, “The most important was because they knew that I would not be a threat to them, now or ever. Because I am a rough, impulsive, senseless fellow, who will not implicate them in a complex relationship.” He smiled a little miserably and then said, “They like me, welcome me, sometimes like theater fans idolizing the famous actors, but they cannot have any conflict between me and their interests.”
Tian SiSi said with a smile, “You seem to look down on yourself.”
Qin Ge said, “I do not despise myself, I know that I have my success, as far as I know, throughout the ages among the famous heroes in jiang-hu, I might be the one who gets the best reception.”
Tian SiSi asked, “Don’t you think there are some sincere worshippers among them?”
Qin Ge said with a forced smile, “Certainly there are, but maybe a youth who are not yet an adult, for example…”
Tian SiSi said, “For example myself?”
Qin Ge said with a smile, “Maybe before you know me, at present you are already different.”
Tian SiSi said, “Why?”
Qin Ge said, “Because you have seen matters which many others will never see.”
Tian SiSi pondered that point and said slowly, “Right, indeed I saw some shortcomings which others will not see about you. But I have also seen some of your merits, which others will also never see.”
Qin Ge said, “Oh?”
Tian SiSi said, “You undoubtedly have a lot of weaknesses, but you also have a lot of attractive qualities. Really, you even have much more attractive qualities than the majority of people.” She smiled, also said, “But a man like you can only be a good friend, not a good husband.”
Qin Ge said, “Before you wanted to marry me?”
Tian SiSi dangled her head, blushed and said with a smile, “Indeed I meant to.”
Qin Ge said, “Now? You are already very disappointed in me?”
Tian SiSi said, “No, only ......”
Qin Ge said, “Only you are not fully satisfied.”
Tian SiSi said, “No.”
Qin Ge said, “Then what?”
Tian SiSi sighed gently and said, “Perhaps because I considered you too high before, whereas now I can understand you more profoundly.”
Qin Ge said, “Because you have understood me, therefore you are no longer willing to marry me? Why does a girl always like to marry a person who they do not understand?”
Tian SiSi had not replied, she did not know how she should reply.
She had not been disappointed in Qin Ge, because Qin Ge was indeed a big hero.
The kind of hero that she could not really understood.
But regardless of which kind of heroes a person was, he was not a god, even a god may have his own shortcomings, moreover a mere human?
Now she felt she could not marry Qin Ge, because the Qin Ge that she saw was not the same Qin Ge that she fantasized.
She was not disappointed, she only felt a little disconsolate.
The disconsolate feeling of an adult.
She detected suddenly that she seemed to have grown up a lot.
Qin Ge was staring at her.
She had pulled up Qin Ge’s hand gently, with a reluctant smile she smiled, “Although I cannot marry you, but we may forever be very good friends.”
Qin Ge had not spoken — — he seemed to want to say something, but he had not said anything.
Tian SiSi was nipping her lips and said gently, “You ......Are you very disappointed?”
Qin Ge stared at her and suddenly laughed, “How can I be disappointed when many women in the world can be my wife, but where else can I find several women who can understand me and be a friend of mine?”
Tian SiSi glanced over and sighed suddenly, “But why did you have to let me understand you so well? “
Qin Ge’s eyes flashed and he said softly with a smile, “Perhaps because my luck is not very good.”
Tian SiSi blinked and sweetly said, “Perhaps because your luck is actually good.”
Qin Ge laughed and said, “In the future, the man that can marry you, he is the lucky one.”
Tian SiSi lowered her head and suddenly did not speak.
Without any particular reason she unexpectedly had remembered that big-headed person.
Where was he?
Was he with Tian Xin?
After a very long time, she looked up and said, “I seem to recognize this road.”
Qin Ge nodded.
Tian SiSi said, “After a while, we will get to the golden beard’s gambling establishment.”
Qin Ge again nodded.
Tian SiSi frowned, “Why do you want to go there?”
Qin Ge had smiled and said, “I want to see that monk again, don't you think he is very strange?”
Tian SiSi said, “He is indeed a little strange, but maybe you are not really that eager to see him.”
Qin Ge said, “Oh?”
Tian SiSi pursed her lips and said with a smile, “Perhaps it is your hands that itch.”
Qin Ge blinked and said, “Even if I want to bet, what do I bet with? With my fingers?”
Tian SiSi said with a smile, “If you don’t have any money to bet, you still can watch others play.”
Qin Ge said with a smile, “You are mistaken.”
Tian SiSi said, “Then why do you want to go there? Do you really want to meet that monk?”
Qin Ge smiled very mysteriously as he slowly said, “Right, because I find that this monk is a lot more interesting than other monks. “
A monk should not be interesting. When a monk became interesting, others were probably losing their senses.